Hello,
I just want to let you all know that the D and C went extremely well today. I have hardly any bleeding and no cramping so far. I think the nurses were thinking that we weren't grieving because we seemed quite upbeat and composed. I guess we are just cried out for now and are trying to see the positive in all of this. I ask now that you continue to pray for Nathan and I, but please also pray for our parents and siblings as they are also really struggling with why this is all happening. All of your prayers were answered this morning and I thank you. I am not doubting God or his plans at all and know that none of this is our fault. We will try again and hope to see the "sun" again.
blessings,
-Crystal
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
What are His plans?
Today would have been Mason's first birthday. It is a tough day for us, but we are at peace with knowing that he is in a much better place. The song that keeps coming to mind is "Better is One Day" by Chris Tomlin. This afternoon we were supposed to hear our second child's heartbeat. I began lightly bleeding this morning and decided to head to the clinic early. When I got there my doctor could see me right away. She tried to find a heatbeat but failed at doing so. She immediately scheduled an ultrasound for this afternoon. At my ultrasound the tech found that there was just a blob of tissue (I don't know all the medical terms for this), and no heartbeat. It turns out that I have had a misscarriage and am scheduled for a D and C early tomorrow morning. Please pray that God will guide the doctor's hands as he is working in a very sensitive part of me. I also ask for your prayers in dealing with this emotionally. Nathan and I are having a really bad day and it just seems to get worse as the hours go on. We have gone to Mason's grave and have asked him to take good care of his little sister or brother since we are unable to do so once again. We are feeling so much pain and continue to wonder what God's plans are for us.
-Crystal
-Crystal
Monday, September 13, 2010
Another Struggle
Hello again,
I know it's been awhile since I have posted an entry, but life hasn't produced anything exciting. I hope that you are all doing well and I thank you once again for all of your continued prayers.
I do have a bit of news now that I would really appreciate your prayers for. Nathan and I have been trying to conceive another child since we lost Mason. It has been about eleven months since we lost him.
I had a blood test done at the beginning of July and the results showed that I wasn't ovulating, so I met with a fertility doctor in Winkler on July 29th. He perscribed me fertility pills but told me to wait until the beginning of my next cycle to take them. I began waiting impatiently for that to begin and by Monday, August 16 (day 41) I decided to take a pregnancy test just to prove to myself and Nathan that we were dreaming about something that wasn't there. To my complete surprise the dollarstore test showed two lines; positive. I thought the test must be wrong since it is a dollarstore test, so I took another more expensive test. I saw a plus sign on this test! I began crying and praising God!!! Then I thought maybe both of these tests were wrong so I went to the clinic to take another test. As I walked out of the bathroom the technician came up to me and said the result showed up immediately as positive! I almost couldn't believe it and kept whispering "THANK-YOU GOD" over and over again! He always seems to have perfect timing. I was ready to take the fertility pills with some apprehension about having twins and having other birth defects and here I am already nurturing a human being inside of me!!!
We are so incredibly excited that we can't find the words to describe it! We have decided to not worry about the what ifs because it is all in God's hands. As far as I know this baby is due on April 12th; 2 days before my birthday. This will be the best birthday present ever!!! I do have an ultrasound in Winnipeg at twelve weeks (September 30th) and then I will have another in eighteen to twenty weeks. These ultrasounds will show how the baby is developing. Please, please pray that we have a healthy child this time!
This is how we told our parents about our super exciting news:
I know it's been awhile since I have posted an entry, but life hasn't produced anything exciting. I hope that you are all doing well and I thank you once again for all of your continued prayers.
I do have a bit of news now that I would really appreciate your prayers for. Nathan and I have been trying to conceive another child since we lost Mason. It has been about eleven months since we lost him.
I had a blood test done at the beginning of July and the results showed that I wasn't ovulating, so I met with a fertility doctor in Winkler on July 29th. He perscribed me fertility pills but told me to wait until the beginning of my next cycle to take them. I began waiting impatiently for that to begin and by Monday, August 16 (day 41) I decided to take a pregnancy test just to prove to myself and Nathan that we were dreaming about something that wasn't there. To my complete surprise the dollarstore test showed two lines; positive. I thought the test must be wrong since it is a dollarstore test, so I took another more expensive test. I saw a plus sign on this test! I began crying and praising God!!! Then I thought maybe both of these tests were wrong so I went to the clinic to take another test. As I walked out of the bathroom the technician came up to me and said the result showed up immediately as positive! I almost couldn't believe it and kept whispering "THANK-YOU GOD" over and over again! He always seems to have perfect timing. I was ready to take the fertility pills with some apprehension about having twins and having other birth defects and here I am already nurturing a human being inside of me!!!
We are so incredibly excited that we can't find the words to describe it! We have decided to not worry about the what ifs because it is all in God's hands. As far as I know this baby is due on April 12th; 2 days before my birthday. This will be the best birthday present ever!!! I do have an ultrasound in Winnipeg at twelve weeks (September 30th) and then I will have another in eighteen to twenty weeks. These ultrasounds will show how the baby is developing. Please, please pray that we have a healthy child this time!
This is how we told our parents about our super exciting news:
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