So yesterday I realized that I don't have much time left with this new life inside of me. It really made me sad to know that I won't feel these kicks for much longer and I won't be able to use the excuse "Baby wants it" for all of the things that I want to eat much longer either. I also realized that I am going to miss the help that Nathan gives me because he doesn't want me to get hurt even though I am still very capable of doing these things on my own.
Because of this I decided to spend some quality time with baby in the evening. I read to it for awhile and then I took a bath and watched its movements make ripples in the water. It was a very precious evening that I will always treasure. I then spent a good part of the evening just praying for our little one and discussing the circumstances of this child with its creator. I still don't know any answers to the decisions that Nathan and I need to make and I still haven't heard the results to the MRI, but I can feel God's presence and know that in time all of the answers will seem obvious.
Thanks again for all of your prayers! This pregnancy is coming to an end soon and the next phase of our lives will then begin; whether it be grieving and healing or basking in a miracle that can not be proven by science. We don't know the outcome, but we will be okay.